Merry Christmas everyone! I hope you all had the Christmas of your dreams. I hope you were able to be around folks just as happy about celebrating the holiday as you were.
This was my first Christmas back with family since before the pandemic and well, it was more depressing for me than the ones I spent at home alone.
I came home and cried and felt more alone than I have in a very long time. I finally admitted to myself I’ve been living my life with expectations that the folks I’m around don’t share after the day I experienced and I’m determined this next year is going to be very different.
Christmas is a magical time for me. It’s full of hope and joy and love. Christmas Day was such a let down I don’t even know how to explain it. I felt like I don’t even matter.
Anyways, here’s to the new year! I’m turning 50, I’m making some major changes in my life and I’m excited to see how my vision for my life unfolds. it’s time.